I have always been plagued with anxiety dreams, who isn't? Perhaps it is more intense for me because I regularly remember my dreams.
Recently the theme of my anxiety dreams has been that I do something horrible to screw up my job or job potential. For example, last night I dreamt that, in cohoots with my sister AM*, I stole some jewellery from a stranger's hotel room. In the dream, it was all AM's idea (hahahaha). She knew where the jewellery would be and she somehow managed to get the key to the hotel room. But it was I who found the jewellery in the room. We were both of us nervously looking around for it.. AM was digging through luggage and I looked in a jewellery case (how imaginative), and found some jewellery but AM said it was not what we were looking for. I was super nervous that we'd be caught and found out, so I was telling AM to hurry up. I think we were sweating. Then I looked in a shelf above the closet and there were these huge strands (like +10 ft long) of beaded necklaces in soft oranges, green-ish blues, and off-white... AM said this is what we were looking for. Interestingly, the necklaces felt sort of cheap, even though they looked neat, I was wondering how they could really be that valuable. They felt like plastic or glass. They also had some shells in them, among the beads. I think we stuffed in them in bag and ran out of the hotel room. AM was then feeling guilty and nervous about being caught; she was crying and feeling like she too had been pressured into stealing. She said she had left a shawl in the room, and our fingerprints were all over everything. I said, very unscientifically, that it was unlikely we'd get caught, but at the same time I was horrified by the thought of getting caught. I kept thinking why did I have to go along with it? If I were to get caught my career would be ruined.. I was so upset at myself for going along with it and I kept thinking how much it was not worth it at the potential expense of screwing up my career.
A few nights ago, I had the same dream except that in place of stealing jewellery, I snuck away from a murder scence and let someone die because I was too lazy, scared, busy, etc to call 911. ACK!!! Again, I felt so guilty for letting someone die and somehow it translated into me not deserving a career or something.
*AM, I'm sorry, this dream in no way suggests you are a thief. It is all me and my subconscious!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
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If it was all my idea, I should get to keep the booty! AM
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